Perceptions

A bit of poetry from my days at WCC (senior college days for me):

Perceptions

did you ever get tired of me?
were you ever upset,
possibly troubled?
i couldn't tell
not the way you embrace me
...or play alongside me
unheard of in the laughter we share.
did we ever have a chance...
or was it just a technicolor dream...
meant only to be viewed by those
remaining colored in black and white
your music makes me move
His words slowly draw me in--
i have learned so much from you
so much about you...
only in this short time,
i know you are precious,
just look at that smile...
complete with dimples,
could wrong stem from it?
how special to me you are
my mind is made up;
never would it surface
not from that heavenly smile.
your sweetly softened face
such a soft yet friendly kiss
tender love redefined
concern always in your eyes
i find myself wondering...
what are you thinking
how would you process this...
my dreams are so different.
they must be,
always have i looked up
not only to the skies
but to you
my perfection is found in you
but you can't abuse it
i won't let you,
not this time...
you've never been the cause,
but a companion
by my side the whole way
you have tolerated me this far
cared for me
given me respect
shown me love...
never will you realize
how dependent I have been,
i have become...
on your smile, your face,
your love, your grace...
your decisions in life even affect me
i have learned to stand alone now...
without your help,
so if you must go
please leave quietly,
but remember my thanks to you
a lesser acknowledged thanks
thank you for being my friend,
for remaining so close all these years
we will not separate with sobbing,
rather with a heartfelt 'later'
a heart warming hug
a close-knit friendship,
never to be broken,
and the faint reminder
that i am with you
always and forever...
i hope a thought of me goes with you
until the dreary end
or even beyond
you are the very start
of the depths of my love
as well as the very beginning
of all that makes me whole.